When Jesus Finally Made Sense To Me

Rosalynn LasleyFaith, Motherhood, Trials1 Comment

Months of planning had gone into one little camping trip with friends.  It seems so silly to plan months in advance to sleep outside on the dirt, but Alaskan summers are something we long for, and time off from work is much desired during the season where the sun doesn’t set.  If you want to take a day off in the summer time, you must ask long ahead of time, otherwise you’ll blink and it will be dark and snowy again.  A two hour drive, deep into the woods was on our agenda, and I looked forward to nothing more than a raging bonfire, and s’mores shared with some of the best people I have ever know. There’s just something about quality time spent with incredible people around a fire, that renews my soul.   It was the weekend before our big camping trip when I started to miscarry. Suddenly this trip we had planned so far ahead of time, seemed a little less ideal for me.  I didn’t want to deal with that out in the middle of the woods. I didn’t want to be a mess physically or emotionally in front of anyone. I didn’t want to be away from home.  My home is my … Read More

…it’s still raining

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Text after text flooded my inbox, and it wasn’t until I was just about to go to sleep for the night, I realized it wasn’t coincidental.  Early in the morning, a close friend talked about her newest baby, and how greatly she misses the one she lost. It’s been four years, but it still hurts just the same. Evening came, and my sister sent me a picture of the scenery over my nephews soccer game. There was no rhyme or reason for the picture, she just thought it was pretty so she shared it with me.   It wasn’t until a really dear friend asked me an innocent question, that I realized that maybe God was trying to get my attention. After all,  I have been asking Him what I should write about, for over two weeks now.  The question was:  “I was wondering how you are, with life with your rainbow?” When she said rainbow, she was talking about my baby, my rainbow baby.If you were to google “what is a rainbow baby?” the response you would get is this: A “rainbow baby” is a baby that is born following a miscarriage, stillbirth, neonatal death or infant loss. In the real world, a beautiful and bright rainbow follows … Read More

…her face was no longer sad

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“And she said, “Let your maidservant find favor in your sight.” So the woman went her way and ate, and her face was no longer sad.” I Samuel 1:18 NKJV Back in December, one of my dearest friends invited my older daughter and myself to a Christmas tea at her church. I had never been to an event of the sort but thought it sounded like a wonderful way to spend some quality time at Christmas time with my daughter, and my precious friend.  The guest tables were filled with beautiful, clever, and even some elaborate Christmas decorations. Our table was decorated with beautiful China that belonged to my friends mother who was spending Christmas with Jesus.  The tea and the conversations flowed, but that’s not what I remember the most. What hit my heart like a bullseye was the devotion. That morning they spoke of Hannah. I remember thinking initially “Wow, they’re not going to give a devotion about Christmas?” But as soon as the speaker opened her mouth, the words were like soothing salve to my broken heart. At that time I felt like Hannah might have, and there was no doubt God had me right where He wanted … Read More