Women Worth Looking Up To

Rosalynn LasleyFaith, Motherhood, WomanhoodLeave a Comment

The phone in my office rang, and there was a voice on the other end I didn’t recognize.  She stated she had my daughter in her office, and in that instant, my heart skipped a beat.   My daughter’s voice trembled as she explained the details to me, and when I asked her if she was ok, she broke down in tears.   My momma heart ached, and I felt so helpless. I’M HER MOM! I SHOULD BE THERE FOR HER…but I was all the way across town at work. I had already missed a lot of time recently because I was in Nashville for the women’s leadership forum, so in that moment my heart was torn. My baby girl needed me NOW, but even if I left work immediately, I couldn’t get to her soon enough.   I’ve been in her shoes before, and I could totally understand why she was crying.  I’ve cried for the same reason once upon a time, and I wanted nothing more than to drop everything to help dry her tears, but I was at work, and I needed to be there too.   Thoughts ran through my mind a million miles a minute, as … Read More

I see your pain

Rosalynn LasleyRedemption, TrialsLeave a Comment

I was only 6 years old at the time but the memory is just as fresh, as if it happened yesterday. I was a little girl in your class with big glasses and wiggly teeth, when I saw you for the last time.  I never even got to say goodbye.  I remember you running out of the school building, as I stood there waiting for my bus. A fellow teacher was trying their best to comfort you. They had their arms wrapped tightly around your shoulder, as they ushered you to the parking lot. Your face was buried in your hands as you sobbed uncontrollably. You never looked up. You never returned to school, and I don’t mean just that year, I mean ever. You never came back.  But how could you?  Your baby died.  My mom told me what happened, as gently as you tell a 6 year old girl, and we went to the store to pick out a small glass figurine of a little boy. My mom thought it might remind you of him. I don’t remember his name.  I wish I did. I spent all night last night trying to remember, but all I could remember is that … Read More

God’s Friendship

Madison RosserFaithLeave a Comment

Any given day brings me about eight million opportunities to completely lose my mind. I am not what people would call a“chill” person. I like to be in control. You know, have my day go exactly according to my plans. Is that too much to ask? Apparently, it is. Not a day goes by that goes exactly as planned. If only I had learned to loosen my grasp by now. I am so thankful for God’s patience with me and my control issues. I believe God can work with me, at least that’s what He says. Lately, I’ve felt him chiseling away, molding me into a person with open hands, ready to receive what He has for me. (Keep in my mind, only this past Thursday did I break down in tears after a day gone wrong.) My pastor preached a sermon several weeks ago, focusing on Psalm 25. I’ll include some of the highlights, mashed together, below. But seriously, you should read the whole Psalm. Definitely worth your time. 1 To you, O Lord, I lift up my soul. 2 O my God, in you I trust    let me not be put to shame;    let not my … Read More

When Jesus Finally Made Sense To Me

Rosalynn LasleyFaith, Motherhood, Trials1 Comment

Months of planning had gone into one little camping trip with friends.  It seems so silly to plan months in advance to sleep outside on the dirt, but Alaskan summers are something we long for, and time off from work is much desired during the season where the sun doesn’t set.  If you want to take a day off in the summer time, you must ask long ahead of time, otherwise you’ll blink and it will be dark and snowy again.  A two hour drive, deep into the woods was on our agenda, and I looked forward to nothing more than a raging bonfire, and s’mores shared with some of the best people I have ever know. There’s just something about quality time spent with incredible people around a fire, that renews my soul.   It was the weekend before our big camping trip when I started to miscarry. Suddenly this trip we had planned so far ahead of time, seemed a little less ideal for me.  I didn’t want to deal with that out in the middle of the woods. I didn’t want to be a mess physically or emotionally in front of anyone. I didn’t want to be away from home.  My home is my … Read More

The Value Of Encouragement

Rosalynn LasleyFaith, Motherhood, UncategorizedLeave a Comment

Encouragement

I was having one of “those” days, where everything felt like a giant “mom-fail.”   I had made plans to help a friend fix her hair for her family portraits, but I also needed to run to Costco which made me late for my visit with my friend.   I went to Costco hungry (mistake number 1) so not only was I late to help my friend, I blew the budget too.  -FAIL   My friend was willing to come over a little later than we discussed originally, which gave me just enough time to get in the door with the groceries before she arrived.  My house was a disaster already, and then the explosion of my hungry Costco loot only added to the chaos.  There were boxes, and food items all over the place, and as I struggled to hurry up and put things away, I heard her voice from downstairs.  Welcome to my mess sweet friend, welcome to my mess.   As she made her way up the stairs, my toddler met her at the gate.  My friend said hello, and my toddler growled in return.  I was embarrassed to say the least.  What kind of mom has a toddler … Read More

BFFs or Mean Girls?

Carol DunfeeFaith, Womanhood1 Comment

The topic of friendship has come up quite often lately. My friend Rosalynn wrote about it here. Lisa TerKeurst wrote an entire study on it. Mom’s Night Out shows how moms need time-out for deeper friendships. Even the movie Mean Girls shows the dark side of so-called friendship. Having lived in six different states, I have had to develop my circle of kindred spirits multiple times. I have learned the hard way that some people have room in their lives for you and others don’t. Sometimes people are in a stage of life where they just can’t juggle one more relationship. Others were lonely like me, and we bonded instantly. Other people have no concept that they could even benefit from friendships outside their 20-year BFF’s. I really wish that I could have grown up near my grandparents and have nearby friends whom I have known since babyhood. It sounds so Norman-Rockwell-ish, but that’s not the life God gave me. Apparently He had something else for me to learn. I have spent enough time as the “new girl” to value the priceless friendships that come from my circle of kindred spirits. I have also experienced the discomfort of being on the … Read More

I Have 586 Friends, So Why Do I Feel So Alone?

Rosalynn LasleyFaith, Uncategorized4 Comments

Night threatened to creep into another morning, and I sat in the stillness of that moment, phone in hand. It wasn’t the best decision I’ve ever made, but it’s something I often do, out of habit.  My family was sound asleep all around me, but instead of using my time wisely (for something incredible like sleeping) I scrolled, and scrolled, until the statuses rolling by, turned into tears that stung my cheeks. I have 586 friends, so why do I feel so alone? My newsfeed showed me things that left me feeling the exact opposite of the connections my heart so desperately longs for: Another group of friends, gathered joyously without me. Friends that live a mere 10 minutes away but haven’t so much as called in months. Maybe they don’t enjoy my company like they used to? Maybe I’m too different these days. Maybe I talk about myself too much, or complain too much to be fun anymore. Maybe that’s why they don’t respond to my texts or invitations. Maybe they have new best friends and the season of life that included our friendship has passed into something different? Another vacation we can never afford. Those people are somewhere warm, happy, … Read More

Unto You

Rosalynn LasleyMotherhood, Prayer & FastingLeave a Comment

For me, October is a month FULL of birthdays. Both of my siblings have birthdays in October, and so do some of my aunts and uncles. I have a niece with a birthday in October, a co-worker with a birthday in October, and many dear friends with birthdays in October as well. I have friends who have babies with birthdays in October, and even my newest baby girl will turn one year old this October. October is full of birthdays, and birthdays mean life to me. I love birthdays most of the time! I mean seriously…there’s cake and ice cream, what’s not to love?! My daughter’s birthdays are always bittersweet for me. I am SO thankful that God has given me these children, but their birthdays are a reminder of how fast the years have gone. I look at my girls in awe of who they are, and with a little lump in my throat at the thought of how fast their lives have gone by. It’s true what they say, the days are long, but the years are short. I can hardly believe that my youngest baby turns one soon. At times it still feels like she was nothing more than a … Read More

The Gift of Those Around Me

Jewel ZymurgyFaithLeave a Comment

In the past couple of days I have gotten to meet with and catch up with someone who I haven’t had the pleasure of connecting with on a regular basis and what a gift that person was! I was given the opportunity to look back and remember and reflect on decisions I made and how God showed up for me in the last several months and it was nothing short of amazing! While there were some incredibly difficult things going on for me personally, I can’t help but look back with sheer delight as I see the incredible gifts that are bestowed on me! I got these huge gifts poured out on me. Being able to spend time with and be loved on in Seattle with the only example I knew of a loving family…beyond words amazing! 1 John 4:7 Beloved, let us love one another, for love is from God; and everyone who loves is born of God and knows God. Redemption Immersion…oh my gosh…so much to be thankful for here. Relationally, God just blew every expectation of mine completely out of the water! I got to know people who I have looked up to and encouraged me in … Read More

Missing Gracie

Jewel ZymurgyTrialsLeave a Comment

I sit here in utter silence… Nothing in the way of distraction… Nothing keeping me away from listening to my heart… When I walk into the living room area I can still smell her scent on the blankets. In the quiet, my heart breaks for a surprising loss. I feel the emptiness of what used to be around me engulf my thoughts…and I miss her. I didn’t feel good…I felt wrecked. Broken enough to feel like the pain in my heart made me bow down physically, dragging myself as if there was an intense weight pulling me to the floor. To be honest, I didn’t even care to straighten myself up to stand tall. There was no want to look good and appear strong for anyone else. I felt lost and disconnected. My first inclination was to pull myself away from those people in my life who had been visual reminders of Jesus—and I definitely wanted to…though I know it is my pattern to pull away from others…so the harder thing for me was to reach out and not be alone. God help me to run to you. Psalm 55:22 – Cast your cares on the Lord and he will … Read More

When A Sister Is Grieving

Jen CudmoreTrialsLeave a Comment

So much loss. So much pain. So many questions. Lately I’ve spent a lot of time considering the incredible pain of suffering. There isn’t one of us who isn’t familiar with grief. We all experience tragedy. Betrayal of a friend.Loss of a job or home.Death of a loved one.  It’s in those moments of raw brokenness that God shows up big. Yet He made us relational beings. We need each other to get to the other side. So what do we do when a sister is grieving? How do we love her through it? The process is unique for each of us, although the emotions will cycle through in turn. Since people handle tragedy differently, there is no blanket response for comforting a hurting sister. We must learn to be sensitive to her needs in the moment. She may need physical help, such as with meals, housework, transportation or responsibilities that are difficult to manage emotionally.  She may need understanding, the empathy of someone who has experienced similar grief and can identify with her situation.  She may need your touch, arms to hold her while she cries, or simply the grip of your fingers around hers. She may just need … Read More

Sometimes I’m a bad friend

Rosalynn LasleyRedemptionLeave a Comment

My heart broke a little bit…ok actually a lot, when her text came across my screen. She told me I was a bad friend. Maybe those weren’t her exact words, but she said it in many other ways.  It hurt my feelings so bad, I cried.  She reminded me of the times I’ve cancelled plans. She reminded me of the times I’ve been distant. She reminded me of my over commitments. She reminded me of the needs of my family, and my job. She reminded me of what I was doing in ministry. She reminded me of the times I’ve let her down.  She said I was a bad friend.  That wasn’t the first time, nor the last time someone has said that to me.  At first I was heartbroken. I love my friend dearly! The last thing I would ever want to do is hurt her. Then I was angry.  Doesn’t she see how hard I’m trying?  I told her of all I’ve had on my plate, and how sorry I was for disappointing her. I attempted to explain that I was overwhelmed with all that I had in my life and was doing the best I knew how. … Read More