It has been utterly amazing being able to unpack and study the attributes of God—every attribute I look on and have opportunity to share my thoughts, I am brought to a place of finding myself completely astounded at the immensity of God! My jaw practically hits my chest with joy at hearing and being able to share in how the same verses impact another as I share in this study with a friend of mine—and it is such an incredible thing!
So many days I have found myself in complete awe with the glimpses I get and I can hardly contain my excitement as I share the incredible things that I am learning about my God!
Yesterday though, yesterday was a little different—still an amazing truth of God revealed in a tangible way in my heart and mind…but it was beautifully different.
This week we are studying how God is faithful and a few of the verses of the dozen spoke to my heart in a super loving way.
God is Faithful—Constant, loyal, reliable, steadfast, unwavering, devoted, true, dependable
Know therefore that the Lord your God is God, the faithful God who keeps covenant and steadfast love with those who love him and keep his commandments, to a thousand generations,
For the word of the Lord is upright, and all his work is done in faithfulness.
Your faithfulness endures to all generations; you have established the earth, and it stands fast.
Your kingdom is an everlasting kingdom, and your dominion endures throughout all generations. [The Lord is faithful in all his words and kind in all his works.]
Blessed is he whose help is the God of Jacob, whose hope is in the Lord his God, who made heaven and earth, the sea, and all that is in them, who keeps faith forever; who executes justice for the oppressed, who gives food to the hungry. The Lord sets the prisoners free; the Lord opens the eyes of the blind. The Lord lifts up those who are bowed down; the Lord loves the righteous.
But this I call to mind, and therefore I have hope: The steadfast love of the Lord never ceases; his mercies never come to an end; they are new every morning; great is your faithfulness.
2 Timothy 2:13
if we are faithless, he remains faithful— for he cannot deny himself.
1 John 1:9
If we confess our sins, he is faithful and just to forgive us our sins and to cleanse us from all unrighteousness.
As I read and reflected on these verses throughout the week, I am constantly challenged as I ponder them and look around me and see the situations of just life in general around me.
I see so much pain and manipulation…the broken hearts of hurting people, trying desperately not to be hurt again.
I see growth and perseverance…the courage and strength it takes to believe the things that are true and yet so difficult to hold on to—and the decision to persevere…
I see beauty and gentleness…the pursuance of relationship and understanding in the middle of the chaos and trouble in the world.
I see challenge and truth…words that align with the heart of God—unable to see me and those around me stay where we are…desiring deeper and more meaningful relationships with God and with others.
Today…this beautiful day, I get to have a brief look at the love and the faithfulness of God…in my own journey…and the tears are overwhelming me…
I was reminded in the middle of a conversation with one loving and beauty-filled friend of the amazing fact that all through my life (not just a few short years ago when I asked for God to show himself in my life) God has pursued and been with and weaved His loving goodness in my life.
My friend spoke of a time where she experienced God’s healing in her own journey…as she spoke my mind brought up pictures of my own past.
In remembering an incredibly hard situation—I look back at the memory and tears of fury and pain and immediately come to my eyes.
She brought me to a desperately dark place in her story where she hurting and she was angry and raging and directed it all at God…
Before I sought to understand, believe or even desire to know Him…God sent his beloved son to take my place…to repay my debt…to be the one to take the punishment I deserve…
…before I even desired to know His name…
Romans 5:8 “but God shows his love for us in that while we were still sinners, Christ died for us.”
The memory became clearer and I recalled the place where I was, the surroundings, the pain of the situation, the hopelessness of the circumstances…how incredibly alone and worthless I felt…
…then how in each of our places of pain…how the most powerful being ever…entered gently into the pain of our past and showed himself to be right with us…
I looked around and I saw Jesus.
When I thought that I was completely alone and left in a heap, like a pile of trash, rotting on the ground…and that I alone knew the beating and gashes…that I was the only one to feel the fear and the immense pain…
…I looked around and saw that right beside me…looking on to that memory of this younger me…was Jesus…
…His eyes pouring tears…
…His heart breaking into a million pieces…
…His face distorted with what felt like an internal pain…
…and the most beautiful thing…the realization that Jesus stood over me…with a broken and hurting heart at the pain that I was enduring—physically, mentally, emotionally and spiritually…and He never turned away…He never left my side…He was right there with me…
1 Kings 6:13 “And I will dwell among the children of Israel and will not forsake my people Israel.”
Oh my Lord, what an amazing God!
My God, You are so incredibly good! The thought brings me to tears—
My Lord and Savior, You are faithful beyond my comprehension! My heart is in awe—