Maybe Not For Me

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Over the last few days with a couple of different people, God has revealed a pretty interesting theme that kept coming up in conversation. Initially, it began with a statement that came from the lips of my daughter and it just caught me off guard enough to have me really pressing into her observations. Then I had the privilege of being in the company of some friends that love me so much that they inquire about my thoughts and let me know when it looks like I am spinning my wheels on anything. As I am in the wake of one of those moments…I am deeply thankful that those around me lovingly ask me why…

I had been asked and then decided to volunteer to help out as a buffet server at a function. I thought that it was no big deal—it wasn’t the funnest thing that I could think of doing, but it was certainly not something I couldn’t do so I agreed and just moved on. I knew that God had been moving so mightily in my life that it seemed almost irresponsible to me not to give back…if that makes any sense. Unsure how to go about doing that—my thought was that I just needed to move into contributing to the church—I didn’t really know how to start or what I really wanted to do, so I said, “yes.”

1 Peter 4:10 “As each one has received a special gift, employ it in serving one another as good stewards of the manifold grace of God.”

When the day came—I helped in the kitchen…though in my mind I really just tried to be out of the way of those who were starting to feel the stress and pressure of the upcoming meal…and then manned my post—one of several people serving a long line of hungry individuals who were ready to eat. After everyone had gone through the line and we were done with the initial clean up, I sat down with my daughter and listened and had a bite to eat myself.

It really didn’t seem like a big deal at the time but afterward I was completely spent. I helped to do the final clean in the eating area but I will tell you what—I was exhausted!

It just didn’t make sense to me—I hardly did a thing and here I was beat!

My daughter asked if we could stop by the store and I (rather animatedly) said, “oh, my gosh, my girl—I just can’t ‘people’ right now.” She was only slightly disappointed but when I let her know that I just needed to rest for a bit she agreed.

Now I’m not one that usually needs to take naps during the day, however, as soon as we got back to the condo—I headed straight for my bed and pulled the covers over my head and fell asleep.

I woke up a few hours…yes, I said hours…later and I felt decent. Not rested but ok enough to continue my day and know that I could fall asleep in a handful of hours, no problem. Plus, we were asked to go to another service at a different church and though I wanted to go—with how spent I felt, I didn’t really feel like going…

However, I do everything in my power to make sure that when I make appointments with or tell people I’m going to be there for them, I am there. So because our life group was going to the service to support one of the leaders, I went to be with them. As it turned out the service was exactly what I needed to revive my worn out self.

As I conveyed the happenings of my day with those in my life I was challenged with this theme that was conveyed in a single statement one of my friends shared with me…

“Nothing drains us more than signing up for things God never asked us to do—”


Oh wow—super convicting—and incredibly applicable as I think back on the day that only a couple of hours took more out of me than I could have possibly imagined.

1 Corinthians 12:4-5 “Now there are varieties of gifts, but the same Spirit. And there are varieties of ministries and the same Lord.”

As it is…I am trying to find out where I fit in with serving in the church body. I know that one of my beautiful friends is beautifully energized and loves serving in the way that I just mentioned. If it had been her serving the food, she would have been able to let you see a much different perspective. I may not know exactly where I would be the most effective but I still intend on pressing in and keep on looking. It’s just that maybe this thing is not for me. There are other ministries and other activities I have yet to try—so…on goes the grand adventure!

God help me to find the way that glorifies you most!

Joyfully His,


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About Jewel Zymurgy

I’m a mom and a blogger. I grew up in church but my family didn’t live a Christian life. It wasn’t until 5 years ago that I opened a Bible to read it for myself. Now that I know Jesus personally, I am trying to become the woman He wants me to be. I hope my blogs inspire women to love God.

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