The friendship of the Lord is for those who fear him, and he makes known to them his covenant.
Every morning, I have the privilege of seeing my disciplined husband seek Jesus. He sits in His spot at the table, eating his every-day breakfast, feasting on the sweet words of God. I so admire this sincere practice of his.
My mornings always look a little different. Here’s a snapshot of Monday:
I had just returned from a last-minute trip to see my sister. I had woken up later than I planned. I had sat and read a book. I had scrolled through facebook. I had made a to-do list. I had drank all the coffee and skipped breakfast. I had gone on a run. I had started my ab workout.
I would have just continued right along in the madness when God’s Spirit spoke to mine. Not through His word, because I did not open it. Not through church, because I didn’t make it. Not through quiet reflection, because I sure wasn’t sitting still.
The Bible talks about hearing God in a still, small whisper, but His words were pretty loud and clear to me Monday morning. I imagined a dear friend of mine having gone throughout my morning with me, watching my striving, gently tapping my arm with a slightly incredulous shake of the head, saying, “Madi, set your gaze.” Immediately, my heart was humbled. I knew exactly what Jesus was saying. Laying there on my yoga mat, I had nothing to say but “Yes, Lord.”
My repentance long overdue, I quietly thought of all the things I had gazed at until that moment. The list was pretty long: social media, miles logged, my softer-than-I-would-like tummy, the schedule for our upcoming company, the spaces I am dissatisfied with in our home, the dishes, the laundry, my to-do list. Oh my heart– how talented it is at distraction and discontent, at jealousy and insecurity!
Like a good and faithful friend, the Lord spoke those direct words to my heart. I am humbled by His passionate pursuit of me when I am stubborn and busy. I am amazed that He desires to satisfy my soul with good things, yet loves me when I “fill up” on empty strivings.
This habit of a busy heart is one long-engrained in me. Although I confess and repent, I know the aforementioned struggle will be present daily. However, His mercies are new every morning. Today, this morning, I determine in my heart to “set my gaze” as He instructed. To open His word, hear His voice, acknowledge that all my satisfaction is found in Him. I am reminded of an old hymn that I have been singing each morning. May we each determine to set our eyes on Jesus, walking daily with Him who guides and directs our paths.
Turn your eyes upon Jesus,
Look full in His wonderful face,
And the things of earth will grow strangely dim
In the light of His glory and grace.