This last week was a strange combination of remembering some very dark situations and looking back on what used to be my standard of thinking which typically consisted of cynicism, suspiciousness and doubt.
Distrust was what was familiar and being known and seen were intangible concepts that could be read about—and so I thought “why in the world would I want to expose myself to being known…then again, why read about it…it doesn’t exist anyway.” Instead of opening my heart and mind up to good things I shut them away from so my thoughts of hope couldn’t be used as a weapon against me. I shake my head with sadness as I recognize how true those words were for me.
However, in writing that today, I am totally filled with joy that my mind didn’t stay in those places of negativity and pessimism.
Wow—God—I’m so thankful you gave me my beautiful friend Susie, who not only was with me as I recalled sitting in those places of despair—but broke through my dreary trance as I saw her tears that validated my pain and heard her honoring words cover me with love when I felt vulnerable and ashamed.
1 Peter 5:8 “Be sober, be vigilant; because your adversary the devil walks about like a roaring lion, seeking whom he may devour.”
I don’t believe quite the same anymore. I don’t think there is the ability to walk up and consume someone. The bible says that the enemy goes around seeking whom he may devour, so it sounds more like there are people that he can and cannot devour.
When I think about the enemy of our souls going around like a roaring lion, I think of the fear it would cause if I heard a physical roar around me—whoa—word check…I think of fear…the enemy is stirring up fear with his roar…
What if I instead, refuse to be intimidated by fear?
What if I stand on what I know to be true—that the Lion of Judah has already overcome and rendered the enemy powerless—my identity is in Him. I am a child of the King and greater is He, living in me, than he who is in the world.
1 John 4:4 “You are from God, little children, and have overcome them; because greater is He who is in you than he who is in the world.”
I am protected and redeemed.
I have authority and power.
That’s it, I decided to change my perspective. I will stay in His word because the Word is truth. I will keep surrounding myself with people who give right and loving perspectives and remind me of and challenge me with the truth. One of my lovely friends has the wisdom to remind me to “doubt doubt” and instead choose to believe what God says is true. I choose to stand on truth. Because of Christ, my days of living in fear and intimidation are over and I sit among the ones who cannot be devoured.