You call me out upon the waters
The great unknown where feet may fail
And there I find You in the mystery
In oceans deep
My faith will stand…
Spirit lead me where my trust is without borders
Let me walk upon the waters
Wherever You would call me
Take me deeper than my feet could ever wander
And my faith will be made stronger
In the presence of my Savior
~ Portions of Oceans, by Hillsong
Many of you don’t know me because it’s been a while since I have had the chance to write for this blog, but I am a momma in the making. I am almost 5 months pregnant with my first baby – a girl! Her name is Aspen. My heart’s been processing something for quite some time and I finally both have the time to write and a grasp on my heart to be able to write it out.
The last time I sang the song Oceans, I found myself moved to tears. I also felt a deep, spiritual heaviness within my womb. I never realized just how strong a momma’s bond is to her child until now. When I sang those words, “… Spirit lead me where my trust is without borders, let me walk upon the waters, wherever You would call me. Take me deeper than my feet could ever wander, and my faith will be made stronger, in the presence of my Savior…” I could not stop thinking about the lifelong journey I would soon be embarking upon as a mother.
There is much surrender and sacrifice in being a momma, whether a foster momma, an adopted momma, a biological momma, or even a spiritual momma, the responsibility to pray for that/those child(ren), to love them, to nurture them, to discipline them lovingly, to support them, to cry with them, to discern their ways in times of need, is strong and deep. As my voice lifted up to the Lord, and I cried out those words to my heavenly Father, I realized instantly that my child was going to greatly increase my faith and make it stronger, but not because of anything I can or will do, but because of the presence of my Savior that lives within me.
There is no time spent closer to the Savior than what my little girl has right now before she enters this world. Think about it… she’s INCHES from the Holy Spirit! Can you imagine the lovelies He’s whispering into her little ears, and the private love He gets to pour out to her as every moment of her life is known and she continues to be knit within my womb? I seriously am unable to see my screen right now as my eyes well up with tears thinking of this intimate Holy Spirit connection my little grapefruit sized Aspen with the tiny two inch feet and hands has!
If only I could hear just a hint of those sweet whispers! And yet, I can! My heart deeply cries out for my baby girl to see Jesus, to claim salvation as her own. I seek the Lord’s face longing for Aspen to be protected, for Him to “hem her in behind and before” (Psalm 139:5).
Psalm 91 is a prayer I claim for my baby.
1 Those who live in the shelter of the Most High
will find rest in the shadow of the Almighty.
2 This I declare about the Lord:
He alone is my refuge, my place of safety;
he is my God, and I trust him.
3 For he will rescue [Aspen] from every trap
and protect [Aspen] from deadly disease.
4 He will cover [Aspen] with his feathers.
He will shelter [Aspen] with his wings.
His faithful promises are [Aspen’s] armor and protection.
5 [Aspen], Do not be afraid of the terrors of the night,
nor the arrow that flies in the day.
6 Do not dread the disease that stalks in darkness,
nor the disaster that strikes at midday.
7 Though a thousand fall at your side,
though ten thousand are dying around you,
these evils will not touch you.
8 Just open your eyes,
and see how the wicked are punished.
9 [Aspen] If you make the Lord your refuge,
if you make the Most High your shelter,
10 no evil will conquer you;
no plague will come near your home.
11 For he will order his angels
to protect you wherever you go.
12 They will hold you up with their hands
so you won’t even hurt your foot on a stone.
13 You will trample upon lions and cobras;
you will crush fierce lions and serpents under your feet!
14 The Lord says, “I will rescue those who love me.
I will protect those who trust in my name.
15 When they call on me, I will answer;
I will be with them in trouble.
I will rescue and honor them.
16 I will reward them with a long life
and give them my salvation.”
What a powerful Psalm to claim for her!! Momma’s (and mommas-in-the-making), declare Scripture over your child, insert their name into verses of protection, place that Sword of the Spirit upon their lives before they even come out of the womb! Momma’s with adults, it still applies! The job title of Momma never ends, though it may morph into friend, or helper, or other great things, it will never subside! I challenge you today to call out to the Lord on behalf of your children. If you don’t know where to start, start with the Psalm I have inserted into this post. If you still have trouble, there are women involved in this amazing ministry who I know would be glad to contact you and help you walk that out to lift up your child(ren) to the Lord.
Be encouraged! Suit up with your armor! We’ve got a battle to fight and it’s “not against flesh and blood, but against rulers, authorities, the powers of this dark world, and the forces of evil” (Ephesians 6:12). Let’s fall on our knees and seek His face for our children. Women who don’t have children, don’t feel left out, I guarantee you there are children and women who need you to pour into them and seek the face of the Lord for them.
I am praying for you…