Happy Thursday to you all!
Sorry that I haven’t posted these past two weeks! I wish I could say that I was on some tropical beach soaking in some sun on a family vacation, but I wasn’t. I basically was just really struggling to find something to share with you all. Every time I would think about it, I would draw a complete blank. I thought- “eh, I’ll just throw something together”, but I really didn’t want to do that. I wanted what I shared to be more intentional and more importantly, from the Lord.
I was trying to think of what I could share from my life that God is doing. Unfortunately, I thought to myself that nothing really exciting is happening in that realm either. I guess you could say that I feel like I’m kind of in a rut. I’m in a rut mentally, physically and spiritually. I can see why many people escape for vacation during the months of February-April. But can I really blame it on the weather, the time of year? No, I can’t and so I’m not going to.
So why do I feel this way? This past week, I spent lots of personal time trying to evaluate that. And what it all boils down to- what God showed me- is that I am not doing one pretty major thing that needs to be done. I am spending personal time with the Lord, I’m happy in and enjoying my marriage, I’m invested in my kids daily lives, I’m mentoring a teenager, I’m teaching preschoolers in Sunday school, and I’m praying multiple times throughout the day. So what am I not doing?
I’m not being still! I’m not taking the time to just BE STILL and listen to the Lord, to ponder what I’m reading/studying, to listen after I pray. I’m rushing through things, kind of half-heartedly actually, just to check it off my list and consider it done. This is not a new problem for me. I am a list maker! I love spiral notebooks and filling them up with notes, doodles, etc. I love being able to tear the pages out as the items I’ve listed to accomplish get done. And unfortunately, many spiritual aspects of my life are treated just like that. I do it, check it off, tear it out and move on.
So now that I took the time to be still and listen to the Lord, I can work on the areas that He helped me see that I am lacking! I will take it day by day in hopes that I will have lots to share in future posts as God works in my life.